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Friday, October 29, 2004

sawrie guys.. haven been blogging for veh long..
cox i was lazy
en was busy playin game..

hais.. last day of skl..
tho got into the klass i wanted..
but still diff wit me fwens..
so sad..
startin they cried
then others started to cry
but i still haven cry
but when i reli hv tears in my eyes..
i keep on forcin myself not to cry
but cannot
then i oso cry
jia lak..
then cried bahs..
y mux we seperate... *tears*

en who daR hell is utisasshole.. humji sia.. bo kit.... bleahs... wateva la.. hum nia loos...

pieces of me @ 10:48 PM.
Friday, October 22, 2004

yay..today iat east coast beach..then ar...wah lau ehhs...they keep on luffing at my constipated experience... i noe they jealous laa... but dun need to liddat keep suanning me wan maa.... aiyo....so pai seh. ehhs.. en they are lyk.. beside me!! wow? haha..now hor...i at the mCafe...ok... the rest are like rushing me like mad mad... haha... reach home then continue..

pieces of me @ 8:26 AM.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004

HeRe iS mY cOnstipaTed DaY...

today in toilet..
push push push
nothing come out
push harder...
leg cramp...
half an hour in toilet..
pushin en pushin en pushin
nothing come out..
starts to perspire..
1 big push..
pok.. 1 lil piece of shit come out..
shit... i tot..
en after dunno how long
then whole thing finally came out..
more then 5 cm thick..
clean butt..
got blood..
this is the experience of kena constipated..

pieces of me @ 11:43 AM.
Monday, October 18, 2004

continuation or trust...
part II

u said u trusted me...
i know those words are fake
u said u trusted me...
did u reli or was those just words?
so wat if wat u said..
i knew it was jux some empty words

when u said i hate u..
i was deeply hurted
i told myself not to cry
as itx not worth it for u
my tears are for the ones
that wun make me cry
since they wun make me cry
why else wud i wan to waste them on u?

so wat if u don't trust me as before
it is not as though i need ur trust
ur trust ain't even trust
it is just some words to make the person happy

things ain't the same as last time
my trust for u is completely gone
not even one percent of it is left
just like the trust u have for me

i knew u nv trusted me
but i noe i shouldn't have cared
i shouldn't have cared for a person
who will hate me after all i did
so wat if u hated me?
my life goes on per normal
happy or sad
fun or bored
i dun need u anymore
sometimes i just wish that
we dun even noe each other at all

trust...
how important this word is
though onli 5 letters
it holds an important role
without it..
the world wud be meaningless..

if u had reli trusted me
then show me ur sincerity
if u believe some stupid rumour then me
then.. i rather not know u at all

trust..
is this wat trust is?
someone.. pls tell me..
pls get away frm me
for i noe u are not my true fwens
true fwens dun give false claims
false claims of trustin one another
if u reli trusted me..
explained the case abt huiyi
yes yes.. i noe she may be at fault
but.. u as a TRUSTIN FWEN..
how cud u believe wat she said so easily?
i'm disappointed in u
and i jus wanna say
pls.. dun hurt me anymore



trust... it plays an important role in our lifes.. false claims of trustin one another is the same as not trustin at all.. dun look into my eyes then u meant to lie.. the scars in me will never heal.. hearts are not meant to be played with.. u happy en u're close with them.. if u're not.. u jus chunck them one side like they're ur worst enemy.. lies are only meant to hurt... u lied to me.. sayin that u trust me? itx lyk... wow..? u trust me.. lyk real.. *rolls eyes* if u're sawrie for not trustin me... i will just tell u something.. sorry... is nothing.... NOTHING.. but a word.. a 4 letter word..

moOd..
saD.. dun talk to me..

pieces of me @ 7:06 PM.

wah lau.. today go skl.. chao sian norrs.. itx lyk... eRss... wan slp.. then nian chou chou.. argh.. eRsmmm.. then today i veh veh angry thing happen.. dun wanna talk abt it.. cox i hope then the next time when i read my blog... i wud hv forgotten all abt it... ya.. en it jux concern 1 ppl.. 1 nia.. lolx.. tho i noe that me en her is lyk.. veh hard to be lyk last time.. ya.. but i still think that "it" is not enuff.. dun wanna state wat the it is.. ya.. but... nvm bahx.. i'm movin on to the future.. en wanna 4get abt u..

pieces of me @ 4:57 PM.

yO diary.. so long nv come le.. tho it is only fer 2 days.. but itx still long...

bodo kor.. idiot.. call me when i was so comforably on my bed.. then call say wat... xiao mei mei... dunno wat.. lolx.. wah piang.. then force me to talk to him when i was so tired en he was so hyper... 4 plus liaoo.. eRs.. now i becoming hyper then he becoming tired.. stupid ehhs.. then he tired can put dwn fone.. argh.. make me suffer..

kor.. wo yong yuan ai ni.. thx for concerning so much abt me.. ya.. nv regretted being one of ur 5 meiis.. lucky me.. haha.. someone to teng me.. ya.. eRs.. he say he only treat 3 type of ppl good.. veh veh good fwens.. stead en meiis.. lolx.. hear liao i so happy.. haha.. that time i was outside then he was lyk.. ehh.. meii.. kor wan or or liao.. when u reach home msg me.. so i will noe that u safe en sound.. i see liao.. i was lyk... awww... haha.. then he erytime sing song for me.. lols.. lucky me..

but ar.. wah piang ehhs... make me talk to u.. sian norrS!!! den i go skl nian chou chou.. haha..
k la...
kor kor + mei mei = 4eva eva
xiang ni.. ai ni yong yuan ji de ni..

pieces of me @ 4:48 PM.
Friday, October 15, 2004

lolx.. wah... ppl jio me out.. but i dun wanna go out.. dun feel lyk going out.. haha.. it is lyk... sooo boring... then mus spend money summore.. itx lyk... so xin tia lor.. haha.. somemore 2 ipt ppl the b'day comin liao.. mux save a lot.. then i oso saving for another reason.. haha.. cannot say.. too bad.. lolx..

en ..?....
u are so darn grose...
who wan suck ur cock lor..
hahaha..
k la..
P.S. he was kiddin.. en so m i..

pieces of me @ 8:04 PM.

yay..!! hey guys.. my blog is up liao.. en i'm so proud of it.. lolx.. it took veh long sia.. haha.. cox i have to study the html.. i suck at it lar.. in 5 wors.. lolx.. then veh xin ku.. *wipes sweat* haha.. but... yay!! so happy.. all purple.. jux dunno how to put pic.. lol.. but.. who cares.. no big deal ma rite?

pieces of me @ 7:58 PM.

u said u trusted me ...
u reli trusted me rite...
then why was i not allowed to read...
if u dun trust me to read..
it is as good as not trustin me to read at all...

u said u trusted me... do u reli trust me...
whr was ur trust when i needed it?
that time.. ..?.. said that i hated u..
did u trust her or me..?
u said u trusted me..
but why do u still trust her..
u said u trusted me..
but is all these wat u called trusted?
u said u trusted me..
if wat u said is called trust..
i rather not be trusted at all
empty promises are meaningless to me..
u said u trusted me..
dun look into my eyes when u're meant to lie..
scars will never... ever heal...
the scar u left me is deep in my hart..
we can't go bek to wat we used to..

dun ever say u trust me
when u trust someone else more
dun ever say u trust me
when all u do is lie
dun ever say i'm a good fwen of urs
when all u do is hide things frm me..
dun ever say that u are sori
as sori.... is nth but a word...

i'm feel sawrie for
not being to able
to remove tis scar...
after this incident...
i have found
ur true identity..
ur true hart..
i noe i'll not be able
to touch ur hart..
there is a door outside
telling me..
i'm not the wan
i once went into ur mind...
it told me ur true intentions
was to hurt me..
not to trust me
was to lie to me
hide the truth frm me...
i wun blame u for tt
cox i noe......
i'm nobody....
jus someone to let u lie to
someone to let u betray to..
someone for u nv to trust
someone for u to hate
i'm jux a nobody to u.

i noe that sori is nth but a word..
but i jus wanna say...
i'm ever so sori..

pieces of me @ 4:40 PM.
Thursday, October 14, 2004

If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with...

A great love is when you shed tears and still cares for him & still longs for him, he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say " I'm happy for you " =)

The worst thing in the world is seeing the one you love with the one they love.

You always leave the ones who leaves you and leaves the one who loves you.

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel and not how you let go but how you hold on.

A guy & a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporary, maybe at wrong time, maybe too late, maybe.. Just maybe... forever...


pieces of me @ 11:01 PM.

ok la.. i not i'm sad.. but wat to do... i mean lyk.. who wun nor.. haix... then itx lyk.. erm.. dunno lars.. i dun care liao eh..

haix.. but... dun go cox he dun go? itx as good as.... i'm only makin use of wei keong.. hais.. i feel so bad.. shud i go?? huurrrmmmmssss...


pieces of me @ 8:39 PM.

wahahaha.. today exam over liao.. haha.. happy ar.... then i tear the exam paper.. tear tear tear... muahahaha.. then i anyhow throw in the class.. haha.. song bo.. lolx~!.. k la.. sad now.. cannot write..

pieces of me @ 8:26 PM.

wah liiew... say goiin.. now not goiin... hartbreak liiao lar`s... sian.. haix.. i dun care.. i'm gonna wait till the day u agree..

1yr
2mths
19 days liao..

i'm gonna waiit en waiit en waiit...
i dun care u...
so wat if u ain't mine..
i dun hv to hv u to be happy...


pieces of me @ 8:19 PM.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004

There are times in life...
When the person you will love,
For the rest of your life.
Walks into your life.

Sometimes, just sometimes...
You hurt that person,
You push them away.
Not meaning to,
But you do.

Because you do this...
You lose that person,
They walk away.

At times...
You are afraid,
To go on, after this.
But what choice do you have?

All you can do...
Is hope that one day,
If that person really was the one.
You will meet again.

And if, just by chance...
You get that second chance,
Remember the past.
Learn from your mistakes,
And never let them happen again.

And by doing this...
You will find out,
That a lifetime of happiness awaits.

If kisses were water,
I'd give u a sea,
If hugs were leaves,
I'd give u a tree,
If spaces were love,
I'd give eternity,
And if u are true and sincere to me,
I'll keep all my love just 4 u 2 c..


pieces of me @ 9:40 PM.

if love is painful,
and tortures us so,
why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain,
this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture,
this powerful death of self?
Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...
LOVE.
It is such an addictive thing that even people
who are not having it
wish to experience it
and share it with others as well.

"The greatest weakness of humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're still alive."


pieces of me @ 9:37 PM.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her.

-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her off??

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's there??

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??

-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?

-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?

-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??

-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?

-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?

-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?

-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?

-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??

-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??

-Then it's LOVE.


pieces of me @ 9:03 PM.

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him.
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN.
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
(no, he says u're too boring 4 him!)

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.

If u don't make love with him, he says u don't Lovehim
If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u areTROUBLESOME
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot beTRUSTED
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMEN

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!

haixx..


pieces of me @ 8:46 PM.

if only someone handed me 12 roses, 11 real and 1 fake and said, "I'll love you till the last one dies." haisS..

i wud be veh veh gan dong norhxx..
esp if it was him.. haisS..
but.. haixX...
even other people oso dun wan..
let only he mahx``?


pieces of me @ 7:58 PM.

Never Get Into A Love When U Meant To Break A Heart...

Never Look Into Eyes When You Meant To Lie...

Promise Are Meant To Be Kept...

Wishes Are Onli Meant To Be Fulfilled...

Scars Will Never Heal...

Hearts Are Not Meant To Be Played With...

Lies Are Onli Meant To Hurt..

And Sorry Is NOTHING But A Word...


pieces of me @ 7:54 PM.

Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy...

When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love fromanotherGirl...
Girls break-up when they feel Separation fromherman...

Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who areInterested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forgetthegirl by going out with other girls...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find hisCharacteristics from other guys...

Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...


pieces of me @ 7:50 PM.

hey.. haix... a mistake i had made.. now we cannot be lyk we used to.. i'm sorri.. i jux dun hv that feel anymore.. the feeling that.. well.. i will be repaid back double by eu.. i'm so sori.. =(

pieces of me @ 5:50 PM.

hhuurrmmss`sss... sian eh.. dunno i shld go notx.. i wanna.. but i oso dun wanna.. lolx.. how ar.. hais...

jux
when
i
tot
that
we
cud
spent
time
with
each
other
again
things
change
now
i
dun
wanna
go
mebbe
is
that
i'm
afraid
to
noe
the
future
and
rather
not
go
en
regret
not
going
then
to
go
with
what
i
hadn't
plan
for
all
along..


pieces of me @ 2:36 PM.

[x]Maths
wah liew... maths so easy.. but got so many careless mistake...
.++. KNN... say wat.. liddat oso can press wrong ar.. KNN.. wateva .++.

[x] Chinese
wah... Chi ar.. i check the ans wit weining.. then got a lot of ans i same wit her... lolx.. yay!! but oso got a lot i diff wit her... scarli the wan i same wit her wrong. then i diff wit u is right.. hahaha..

pieces of me @ 2:33 PM.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004

yes.. yes.. u mebbe going... better then a direct no... so glad that u still considerin whether to go notx.. haha.. if not i go to the BBQ oso no use liao.. haha.. chalet will be not fun w/o u... if u nv go.. i dun even wan to ton liao... haha... but wat to do? u're my one en only.. i'm truuuuly... i'm truly in love wit u... hee..

pieces of me @ 10:39 AM.
Monday, October 11, 2004

i once wished upon a star
wishin u were mine
but the star told me
what is urs..
u will always have it
but..
what is urs
may not be urs
so
whenever u see any star
make a wish on it
dun ever let it go
as once u let go
it will be a rare chance
for u to see it again
like the opportunities we have
to spend with each other
cherish it
like u will never
see it again..
nice or not ar? haha.. i anyhow make up wan.. lolx.. but.. i feel sawrie for myself.. for not cherishin the times we spent.. the things we do.. and... most importantly... u.. if we cud be lyk last time.. i will cherish it always.. as... wat if... tml u weren't there for me? wat if... u met wit an accident? wat if u have to move back to malaysia? well.. wateva it is.. i will always wish upon a falling star for u to be safe en sound en that we could spend out time like we used to...
(.._)


pieces of me @ 6:03 PM.

sob.. lolx.. i tot i cud be peer.. but i can't.. but... i'm not sad veh sad abt it.. i'm ok wit it.. lolx..
hmmm.. this fri.. ah keong havin chalet then got bbq... mebbe i goin ba.. yay..!! haha.. mebbe he wil be dere too.. hee.. letx jux hope en pray... ("") hee..

if
i
see
u
dere
means
we're
fated
if
not
we
weren't
meant
to
be


pieces of me @ 5:57 PM.

baby
i
love
you
en
i'll
never
let
u
go
but
if
i
hv
to
boi
i
think
that
u
shud
noe
all
the
love
we
made
cud
nv
be
replaced..
yup.. next time write more... haix...
so sad.. yet... so true...
jux thinkin abt it make me feel ever so sad
=( [[`*SoB*`]] )=
i
jux
wanna
let
u
noe
that
nobody
can
ever
replace
u
cox
u
r
the
only
wan
in
my
heart
the
one
en
only
no
room
for
any
3rd
people
only
for
u
u
will
never
ever
be
replaced
by
ani1


pieces of me @ 3:02 PM.

wah.. today reach home damn early... slp liao.. play com liao.. do wat i wanna do liao.. see time... only 2... haha.. sian 1/2.. haha... but wat to do? lolx..

today exam veh easy ba.. lolx.. thank you lord for makin the paper lyk easy peasy.. hee.. hmmm.. then after skl... i saw dennis.. then i was lyk.. oh... same klass wit +him+ rite? means... means.. ahh!! then i purposely walk to market that road.. hopefully can see him.. but nv.. stupid dennis.. gimme false hope nia.. sian 1/2.. haha..

lolx.. k la.. today reli mux study.. cannot write a lot.. hee.. bye....


[[`my love for u is profound.. undying.. nothing can ever replace it..`]]


pieces of me @ 2:54 PM.
Friday, October 08, 2004

wo
ai
ni
dao
shan
dao
hai
no
words
could
express
my
love
for
you
it
started
frm
a
lit
rumour
but
it
grew
to
a
never
ending
never
failing
love
i
feel
sad
not
being
loved
back
by
u
not
even
half
of
it
is
returned
but
having
knowing
some1
like
you
have
changed
my
life
completely
and
even
if
we
don't
work
out
in
the
end
i
will
still
probably
rmb
u
all
my
life
thinkin
of
u
made
me
feel
proud
of
myself
for
not
giving
up
i
tot
of
giving
up
i
tot
of
accepting
other
ppl
but
when
i
think
of
u
all
i
tot
of
was
to
wait
for
u


pieces of me @ 7:17 PM.

wo
ai
ni
hen
jiu
le
wo
zi
xiang
geng
ni
shuo
wo
mei
you
zhe
me
ai
yi
ge
ren
let
me
go
i
cannot
stand
this
torture
anymore

pieces of me @ 7:13 PM.

ai qing shi bu neng mian qiang de
yi dang mian qiang
shi mei you xing fu de
wo
ai
ni
J
O
L
E
N
E
1
3
1
4
A
I
V
I
N
C
E
N
T

pieces of me @ 7:05 PM.

eRm... today ar.. exam lo...
so si bei sian... almost slp... sure flunk de lor...
today no see u
feel so sad
not hyper liao
feel lyk sleeping
going into my dream land
dreaming of u
dreaming of all the wonderful times we had
dreaming of the day
i was at ur hse
dreaming of ur grandma
showing me ur parents
wedding photos..
dreaming of the day
i 1st saw u
dreaming of us
playin bball
dreaming of the days
we used to cycled together
all i wanna do now
is to hold u in my arms
squeeze u tight
afraid of letting go
afraid of losing u
wo xiang shuo
wo ai ni
cox i wun noe wat the future might be
wat if u met wit a accident
wat if....
wat if....
i can't bear to think of the days w/o u
life will be so
so.. meaningless..
so... haix....
each day i longed for u to love me
the way i wan u to
i noe that
each people
had different ways
of loving one another
juz cox u dun love me
the way i wan u to
doesn't mean
u dun love me at all
SaDdeN.. 9o

pieces of me @ 6:12 PM.
Thursday, October 07, 2004

well.. we have already been thru so much.. thru thick en thin.. ya.. longing for u to liked me was a task that i hv to do.. now that i already accomplish that task.. i shld not jux let it slip by me.. i shld cherish it... no matter wat.. ya.. i'm so sawrie.. hope u will 4give me.. ya.. i dun wanna lose u...

pieces of me @ 5:47 PM.

haisS... even if now i regret oso know that itx too late la.. i know u wun read this ba.. but i wan to say that i'm sawrie ba.. wo zhen de suo bu chu kou... even in msn i oso dare not say i'm sawrie.. cox i noe that i'm in the wrong.. ya.. i noe u wun 4 give me or wateva la.. haisS.. hou hui ye lai bu zi le.. sian.. i noe itx my fault to start wit.. but if u said that u trust me... and u din trust me to read that... it is as good as not trusting me at all... i mean lyk... haisS.. nOw u calling me.. shld i anS? k laR.. ans.. k.. haix.. feel so sad.. so sori.. ya.. lucky we not enemies.. talk things out... yup.. still can luff liao.. yay!! ^^,V so happy we not quarelling.. haha.. i jux wan to tell u i cherish u a lot.. ya.. i wun eva let u slip by me.. ya... sawrie for invadin ur privacy.. ya.. haix.. i will always stay by ur side.. even if u dun wan me to noe things that i shldn't.. yep.. so sawrie..

pieces of me @ 5:08 PM.

WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER

WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER
WHATEVER


pieces of me @ 4:50 PM.

fine lo! hate me 4 all u care... wateva... the most dun read liao lo.... big deal... i wun care anymore... cox i not TRUE enuff 4 u ma! so y care so much! u ask me to think abt it ar... well... my ans is.... fine... hate me la... lyk i will care liddat... itx lyk... wateva....

pieces of me @ 4:50 PM.

ahh!! stupid nehx... the eng paper.. sian nor... so many wrong.. if i fail i'm gonna kill myself ar.... the eng so important.. then if i fail can go na liao... en i dun wan nor... sian..

fweak science la.. so damn fweaking hard... wan me fail ar... i do reli lyk... head empty sia... cannot go 3/2 liao ar... sad.. but wat to do? wat is done cannot be undone... haix....

today ar.. haha.. when i went to market ar... i saw eh hem... haha.. then i scream lehx.. then ar... he turn around.. lolx.. then i was lyk.. so pai seh... haha.. he turn bek... i "silently" scream... then when he turning to the bus stop, he turn his face one more time.. haix... hope he purposely turn to see me de.. lolx.. mebbe i think too much le ba.. i whr will pei u.. haix.. u're so perfect in my eyes.. yet in ur eyes.. i'll be lyk.. jux another person that likes u.. haix.. wonder how long to wait... already 1 yr 2 mth en 16 days liao eh.. haix....

.+=[[` *sOb* `]]=+.
hmmm.. same thing happened.. lolx.. ate wit em.. lolx.. today the grp damn big.. all eat in market..
stupid ling yong.. so dao.. haha.. ok la.. not reli dao.. jux that he no see me nia.. haha.. erm... manda ar.. nice ger.. startin tot she dao wan.. haha.. but now i noe that she not.. haha.. today saw me jie.. lolx.. so happy to see her.. haha.. so lucky to hv her.. hee.. i not les ar.. haha..
muahaha.. today me en jia en carin slack at my blk below.. until the pesticide or insecticide come then we siam.. haha.. then ar.. slack at void deck... carin.. u so pian tai.. haha.. sperm.. lolx..
k bahx.. tt all wit my boring boring day.. haha.. bye for nw...
^+gOoD LucK wiT yOuR paPer+^


pieces of me @ 3:40 PM.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004

lolx.. today my exams.. eng en chi compo.. do damn fast for both sia.. eng after doing fin still can copy again en write neatly.. chi after i do fin i went into my dream land.. haha.. then ms ho tried to wake me up.. but cannot... LOL... she was lyk... movin my hands and i dun even noe.. haha.. then after tt she used a lot of strength then i wake up... LOL.. erm... erm... oops? lolx...

whOohOo.. yeah... u'Re nOt daO.. haha.. kewl.. i tot u were.. haha..

today... lolx... ate lunch wit ah jia en co. haha.. tho feel a bit left out.. but itx ok wan narhx.. cox i veh long nv go wit em.. then maybe they will think that i'm jux an extra ba.. lolx.. but itx ok de narhs.. xi guang jiu hao.. haha.. erm... ya.. mus study for sci liao.. cannot type more.. next time then update wor...

++ each day i longed for u to loved me.. but.. haix.. sad... i wan to be loved then to loved.. but then again... i cannot force myself to forget you.. i'm still thinkin of u.. en i wun forget u.. we're fated to have met.. but... maybe u were not the true wan for me.. i wan to tell u... wO ai ni.. wO yOng yUaN ai nI.. if u dun love me.. itx ok.. i understand.. but u cannot make me to stop loving u... ++

tC tO whOeBeR ReaDin thiS..
eN gOod LucK fOr uR teSt..!!

fRm zHu LinG


pieces of me @ 2:10 PM.
Monday, October 04, 2004

[x] freaky man...
yO.. wassup man.. haha.. ok.. this is freaky... today... i saw weemeng en him together... then i waved and said hi to weemeng.. then vin smiled and waved at me.. i so happy.. his smile is sooo sweet... maybe i got chance liao.. so happy.. then lyk so fated liddat.. haha.. i went to the library after that.. and he was there too.. stupid weemeng.. haha.. before he went.. he held vincent shoulders and turned him and said " nv say goodbye to her ar?" haha.. erm.. then i was lyk.. erm... erm... ahh!! then my whole face blushed lyk siao.. haha.. so happy!! he said hi to me...

[x] library
woah.. so long had i not enjoyed my time wit ah jia en co. esp her.. lolx... we were lyk... so pian tai nor.. haha.. lyk.. erm... lookin at a lot of story book lyk.. <> ... er.. i think... en <> en the best book of all... <> GRAB, TWIST, PULL... LOLX.. that was so funny.. yup.. spendin time wif eu sure ish fun.. hope we can do i again.. but i doubt that i can next year.. cox i dun think we can go same klass.. jun kai got same marks as me en his position is lyk.... 33? so sad... i reli wan be in same klass.. but itx so hard.. haix.. maybe if i be in same klass oso no use.. u wun be klose to me... no no.. cox if i can get in... weining en carin sure can get in.. en u will be lyk... closer to em.. well... i've promised myself that i wun cry over things.. en i wun.. even if we were in diff klass.. i wun shed any tear.. cox i noe u wun do that for me.. haix..
++ . thinkin of the time we spent together... so fun... so meaninful... yet... it remains as memories and only memories . ++

)= [[` *sOb* ` ]] =(
[x] song
omg... today lynn lemme hear this song.. i hear liao already feel lyk crying.. itx lyk... so sad nor... then i hear liao lyk.. almost cry... erm.. en.. lynn ar.. if u readin this... MY DISCMAN!! haha. nvm ba.. u can lend as long as u lyk.. i mean.. till i wan u to return it to me that is.. haha..
[x] eh.. fweak..
hey.. freak u la.. u think u so great.. act nia... itx lyk... wateva la... heck care u lo... wateva.... bleah..
[x] story
hmm... now.. this is a true story.. short version.. cox lazy to type out.. erm.. last line is not true...

Girl saw Boy
Fren saw Boy
Girl get Boy number
Boy gif Girl number
Fren wan Boy number
Girl give Fren number
Girl msg Boy
Boy replied
Fren msg Boy
Boy no reply
Girl lyk Boy
Boy lyk Girl
Fren lyk Boy
Boy dun lyk Girl
Fren sad
Fren hartbroken
Girl see Fren sad
Girl also sad
Girl told Boy
Itx impossible
Boy heard
Boy sad
Boy hartbroken
ask girl why
Girl say cox
Fren lyk Boy
Girl cry
Boy hartbroken
Fren noe
feel sad
Fren say
dun lyk boy
Girl noe
tell Boy sori
Boy nv reply
Girl sad
Girl cry
Girl heartbroken
say bye bye
Boy see
Boy sad
Boy find another gal
Boy happy
Girl heartbroken
Girl regret
but too late
Girl canot do anything
Girl cry
Girl fall into eternal sleep
[x] thanks~
ya.. this story.. veh true.. except for last part.. well.. ya... sad rite.. to me tat is.. haix.. but i lucky that my fwen stopped me.. cox itx reli impossible.. and if she nv did that.. i wud hv already forgotten abt ++ . him . ++ the special person that had brought colour into my life.. thx! u noe whu u are...
hmmm.. sometimes it is all planned out.. ya... dun cry over it.. smiled cox it has happen.. ya.. i'm learn to live wit that line.. i will shed no tears to no one.. unless they deserve it.. but ... wat do i mean by deserve it? i mean lyk.. if they "deserve it" they wun make me cry in the 1st place.. i mean lyk... TURE RITE??
JoLeNe 9o


pieces of me @ 5:22 PM.


An imperfect perfectionist;
Adores the rain;
Loves the hugs;
Craves for happiness;
With a handful of love;

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J O L E N E . T A N
O5 August 1990
Singapore Institute of Management
University of London
Bsc in Banking and Finance
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